Sunday, May 25, 2008

the calm before the storm

at least, let's hope so! i'm sick of waiting!!

i know all my posts lately have been about change, and moving, and everything. so i'm sorry if i'm boring you to death. but i'm so ready! the way things are going right now it feels like things will be stuck they way they are for years, and if that happens i'll... do something drastic. i just keep feeling like this big event is coming, and i'm stuck around here anticipating it. and if i have to anticipate too long, some drastic, dramatic thing will happen and my big event will never come. i know moving won't necessarily help the stagnant feeling, (just move it around for a while maybe). it could even make it worse, who knows. but somehow, i think it will be exactly what i need right now. i know this is the right thing for me, and i've known it for a long time. i didn't feel so anxious about it 10 months ago, but now that it's getting closer, i'm ready ready ready!!

Monday, May 19, 2008

the morning will come

i might be procrastinating a little... but writing this blog is much more fun than writing my essay. so i'm gonna do this for a while, and then torture myself later.

my life seems to be all about change lately. i chopped off my hair last week (it's very hot, by the way), i'm moving in 8 weeks (and counting), my little bro left on his mission and my other one left to alaska, my best friend moved to arizona (see?), pretty much everyone i know is either engaged, married, or pregnant. i went to my ward yesterday and realized that its time for me to move on. the moving on just isn't happening fast enough for me. i would love to just be able to pick up and leave tomorrow. there will definitely be things i miss, but the longer i stay here the clearer it becomes that the next stage of my life is what is important. i don't know what is going to happen, or what all i'm getting myself into exactly, but i do know that moving is what i'm supposed to be doing. and that makes it hard to sit around and wait. change is the spice of life, i say. and my life could use a big healthy dose of spiciness. so i guess i'll start myself a little countdown and get ready to do my thing. even if things don't happen the way i wish they would, the change itself will hold me over for a while. if i stick it out and graduate soon, i can move forward with my plan (see previous post). life is just waiting, so i better make it happen!

Saturday, May 17, 2008

we may stay there forever

i have come up with a new plan for my life. it's a pretty great one, if i do say so myself. here's the deal: after i graduate from college in 3+ (but hopefully not too +) years, i will move to costa rica to teach english. costa rica seems like a pretty great place to live, with lots of beaches and adventure. i think i'll have a lot of people want to come visit me too, which will be nice. i'll just have to learn spanish, but i think i can work on that and learn enough in the next 3 years to get me by when i get down there, until i can perfect it. while i'm in costa rica, i will find someone who knows how to sail and will be willing to teach me, preferably with an extra sailboat laying around somewhere they would be willing to let me take off their hands. once i'm confident in my sailing abilities, i will sail around the world at least once, visiting 60-80 beaches while i'm at it. when i get back from that undertaking, i'll probably be ready to settle down a little. so i'll find myself a good teaching job somewhere, teach for a year or so, then fly back to china and adopt a little chinese girl who may or may not be named Daisy.